Art, Rantings, and Pie

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 23:44:27 GMT

Right, so making an actual update that isn't an angryrage of death. Or trying to. I've been writing a lot more than drawing, and RPing a lot more as well. But even more than both of those?

Videogames. Xbox LIVE. 8D I finally have a console set up in my room. XD So it's stolen my soul. Mostly, RE5. I do so love the Resident Evil series. ♥ Though, Chris Redfield, as my friend put it, is not on steroids. The man IS a steroid. >.> Too muscley. D:

Either way, I hope to post some more. :3 I've sortof disappeared, and I doubt anyone's noticed, but I'll try not to let work and videogames consume my soul completely. xD

So yeah.

Hi, if anyone's noticed I'm gone~

PS: Food and music = Happytiem is nao.

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 22:06:45 GMT

Why is my family so fucked up? Honestly, if I skipped school for over half the goddamn year, my mom would've had my ass on a silver platter. She would've taken away everything. Phone, videogames, internet, computer... and anything else I could find to do. Hell, my notebooks and sketchbooks, too. So why is it, that she barely even TRIES to punish my brother?

HE'S the one who's fucking up his life.

Not me.

So why am I being punished for his fucking screwups? Why is he constantly allowed to play, allowed to access the internet, allowed to watch TV? I don't get it. It's fucked up. And I"m sick of it. If this continues, I'm going to snap. Sortof feel like I already have.

I mean, sure. I barely made it out of HS. I have a cruddy job. I don't look like I'm going anywhere, and I'm stupid, and not worth shit.

But at least I got THIS far. My brother hasn't even made it out of ninth grade. He's doomed himself to fail. He's doomed himself to become the failure dropout that you always hear about, working part-time at some dumpy diner or something.

I really don't get it.

(sorry for the whining, I just-- I don't want to start punching walls again, I really don't. =__=)

Edit: Way to go, Mom, removing me from your LJ friends list! 8D I honestly hope you're proud of yourself. Not that you can see this because you REMOVED ME 'cause of a few honest remarks. Way to go, you.

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 00:50:07 GMT

It amazes me that I'm even posting this. XD Anyway, This is... A bit of writing. Original writing. Taking place in a little universe that's planted itself into my head and won't go away. 8D Writing for a character that.. Wasn't originally mine, but I've written him so much he may as well be. xDDD

Anyway, here it is. First posted writings in a long time, so don't judge too harshly. If you even read it to begin with. 8D

Fandom: Uhm. Original. D:
Characters: Rai, Irae
Words: 810

Rain poured down upon the streets, darkness blanketing over everyone who was still out at this late hour. It pattered against roofs and windows, making everything blurry and cold. Thunder crashed across the sky. Rai didn't notice. He simply walked. Slow, almost languid steps. As if he didn't notice the icy sheets of rain that bounced harshly off the pavement, or the fact that he could see his breath. Was it really that cold?

More than anything, he was numb. There was a slightly distant pain-- a dull ache, something in the back of his mind. But he couldn't figure out where that pain was. It was almost as if he wasn't there.

Like this was someone else, finding themselves lost in a city they hardly know, despite having lived there for years. This dark, gray city that he hated. It was filled with things he loathed. All those things that the others, his 'family',seemed to love. For him, there was no love in his heart for this terrible place, this harsh reality. Like it wasn't him, in this surreal situation, in this storm. With the rain soaking him through, blood splattered across his shirt, and a coldness that overtook him from the inside out.

Blood, washed away from his face, but refusing to leave his fingertips. It stubbornly stuck to his skin, under his nails,and no matter how drenched he was, the blood wasn't going away. It was like a stain. Why was he here? Here. It was a relative term. He didn't necessarily mean the city, even though he hated it. Rai wasn't sure what he meant.

Now,the rain seemed rather... Quiet. Was his hearing going, too? Mud-caked shoes come to a stop, ceasing their walk, if one could even call it that.. Pale blue eyes stared up at the sky. Clouded over and dark.There was no light. Now, he couldn't hear the rain at all. Or anything else. No cars, no people, not even the thunder. It was completely silent. And now, it almost seemed--

"Rai!" Lightning crashes, illuminating the sky for a mere millisecond, and again, he can hear everything. See everything. He can feel hands on his face, warm and familiar. Pressing against his cheeks, delicate thumbs under his jawline. Those fingers, long and slender and so damn familiar, tug his face downwards. Forcing him to look at whoever this person is.

Blonde hair plastered against pale, scarred skin. Wide gray eyes stare back at him. Confused, and a little of something else he can't quite decipher. He speaks, and his voice is barely above a whisper.

"... Irae?" How long had he been out here? How long had she been standing there? Where did she come from? Why hadn't he noticed her? The rain pounds against the pavement and is almost unbearably loud in his ears. The thunder, even louder. She asks him these things--Where he's been, what he was doing. Irae calls him an idiot for standing out in the rain so damn long, but the insult is not as harsh as it should be. Rai finds he can't find the words to answer her right now; Didn't she see the--

Blood. The blood.

Suddenly, Rai doesn't know what he's doing, but his arms are around her waist, pulling her close enough. Nose buried into the crook of her neck, and--

And he's trembling. Shaking. Not crying. Just... Clinging to this girl that he loved but didn't know why. Her skin was warm. Just as wet as his, but it was warm, and it was there, and real.

He hears her sigh softly. Irae runs a hand through his hair and another rests on his back. She wasn't good at this sort of thing, he knew she wasn't. But he wasn't looking for comfort. Rai wasn't looking for anything. He just wanted something real. Something that wasn't going to disappear or break. Even though right now, that something was already broken.

Irae held him closely. She didn't speak, she didn't move. She just held him. And really, that's all Rai needed. More than anything, they understood each other.

And they knew what the other needed. Especially in times like these.

Rai hoped, allowed himself to hope-- He hoped that it would never change.That they could stay like this. This moment in time where she held him,where Irae didn't push him away. Where he was given what he so desperately needed. He wanted to stay like that, with her. He wanted to stay here, forever. Even though he knew it could never happen.

Even though he knew that this hope was a silly dream. Something that doesn't exist. He let himself indulge in that dream, that fantasy. Rai needed hope. And that's just what Irae gave him, as a storm they both didn't really notice, raged overhead.

That said, I need more icons. D: No icons I have fit for this post. I just really like this one. Saiyuki. <3

8D

*hides away*

A slight rant..

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 01:08:10 GMT

You know, people are STUPID. Like my brother who has amazingly gone unpunished, despite his not going to school for over half the goddamn year. Really, if I pulled that shit, I'd be dead. My mom refuses to punish him for cutting entire days when she KNOWS he does. Sure, she's taken away the videogames, but for no more than a week. And that excludes weekends. I just really, really don't understand it. =___=

He's failed like what? two, three years? If this continues, he has less of a future than I do, and that's.. kindof pathetically sad. Maybe it's because she was so stressed out when I was in highschool, that she's given up on my brother? Hell, my brother has given up on my brother. Argh. It's frustrating. Especially when teachers and other students at school ask me where he's been.

My answer is always the same: He's a dipshit who's fucking up his life for no goddamn reason. Only, without the cussing. 8D; I'm the GOOD student, afterall. Sortof. I'm the GOOD student who failed two years of english because she wasted time being depressed. xD My sister was the bright one. Seems to be the oldest is the brightest, and then it just dwindles down from there.

Anyway, sorry for the rant. This has gone on for a while, and I'm frustrated. D8
Other than my idiotic brother,

Either way, tomorrow I may post with some recent sketches, and a few original writings I've done. I dont' excel in either, so if you pay attention, plz to not being too harsh. :3 I've just gone back to work after having a little over two weeks off, so I've been exhausted. Thus, cranky. So, sorry if I offend anyone. <3

Here's to hoping I haven't, and though it's late, Happy New Year! I've made some resolutions that I may keep. Some of them, at least. I'll try to post more often to see if anyone actually gives a shit. XD

Edit: ... Wow, this ended up being a LOT longer than I thought it would. XD

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 06:10:16 GMT

So, for those that may be confused, this is yoko_chan. Just decided that I needed a different username. xDDDD It's wierd, but I like it. 8D

That is, for those who remember me. :3

Will make an actual post later! 8D

so~

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 22:46:38 GMT

I've been doing a lot less art, and a hell of a lot more writing. I have something that's... over 3000 words. Which is a pretty big thing for me, I never ever write that much, EVER. xD It's fun to write, And I have interesting characters to work with. Original writing is fun. <3

But yeah, I'm alive. How has everyone else been? I've gotta post moar. I keep meaning to, but then work kills and Fable 2 and writing and drabbles and epics and art and-- yeah, I get sidetracked.

No matter how much I write, though... Never attempting NaNo. Ever. I can't write for shit, and so many people that are faaar better than me are doing it, so I dun want to attempt it. xD Not this soon. I've only just gotten back into writing. Maybe it's gotten better, and I've lost my ability to drabble a little, but I'd prefer to wait. :3 Inferiority complex or something, I dunno.. oh! yeah. Low self-esteem. 8D

May post some of it. The writing, I mean. tidbits I think were/are good.. And the drabbles I write centered around that universe and characters. Still needs a proper title. And a plot. a plot would be nice. I think I'm just better at RP. xDDD

But enough of my rambling. <3 I'll shut up nao~

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 12:44:28 GMT

Last day of school. Now, I only have to worry about being dead-tired from work. XD Will try to update more-- I have lots of things to post. Drabbles, Art, rants~ XD

I hope people actually remember me. >.>;;

Also, birthday was on Sunday. I'm 20 nao! 8D I got a beautiful necklace from Shauna. :3 Still wearing it. So shiny~

Strawberry shortcake is win, btw. <.<

Also, who here on the flist is going to Otakon? Anyone? D:

The tablet doesn't work in this area. *le sigh* Not installed. Tempted to install it myself, but I'm not sure the teachers would like that.. Stoopid Mac computers.

Also, Sasuke with shoujo manga eyes is hilarious. I do like Sasuke as a villan, though~

Rawr. At school, so should be off the internet nao.. >.>

Will post an art dump by this weekend, at the latest <3

If.. anyone remembers me. xD;

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 13:00:47 GMT

So, it figures, when I'm at school instead of being at home where most my free time is at, I post to my LJ. XD;

Anyway, still working at McD's. Have managed not to kill myself! 8D Accomplishment, right there~

I wrote a few drabbles, but they're mostly Original stuff, so I probably won't be posting them here. xD

How has everyone been? I miss talking to you all. ;___;

And RP still has control of my life. I try to break away, really. D:

Might post Irae sketches later. ♥

Screw you, subject title. D

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 22:55:57 GMT

So, it's been a while since I posted. Work and all that shit. 8D;

Anyway, this is a kind-of artpost... >.>

Warning for, uh, slight nudity 8D;;

Bigger version on Deviantart.

I know there's a million mistakes, that hand HATES ME, but, I'm mostly happy with it. :3

And I forgot her bracelet. oh well. xD

Well, I'll try to post to this thing a bit more often. :3 and comment. I read it, really! D: I just never comment. xD

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 14:11:45 GMT

Well, I suppose I should use LJ for actual posting, rather than just sticking my art up here. >.> Not that people are interested in either~

Anyway, went to go see I am Legend and I am very, very satisfied. I love it. XD I was expecting it to be okay, but I wasn't expecting it to be so amazing. <3

Have been reading Airgear. Loving it. <333

Plan to draw more. And post moar. New Year's resolution xDDD

Hope you all remember who I am. :3

And I think Sakura would look pretty in a corset. >.>!

*goes back into lurkdom*

Long time no see, El-Jay.

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 03:10:27 GMT

Or, something like that.

So, the year's over. Here's to hoping the next won't be as shitty. D:

But, I do love you all. Meeting some of you guys at Otakon was amazing and definitely a highlight of the year. :3

There were other good things, but I'm too lazy to make a huge post about it. >.>

But I will post my most recent art thing I'm working on. :3 It's just a sort-of lineart, but yeah. >.>

Corsets are pretty, but I don't think I ever want to wear one. >.> Also, I should not design dresses. 8D;

Also, Ashy? I love you.

When I got your christmas card, I was having a pretty shitty day and I was in an equally shitty mood, but that card made me so happy. <3 Thank you. ;_;

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 23:45:19 GMT

My pirate name is:

Bloody Bess Vane

Every pirate lives for something different. For some, it's the open sea. For others (the masochists), it's the food. For you, it's definitely the fighting. You tend to blend into the background occaisionally, but that's okay, because it's much easier to sneak up on people and disembowel them that way. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from piratequiz.com.
part of the fidius.org network

Pendoodles are <3

Uh. A face. Yeah. >.>;

On a lighter note...

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 22:44:14 GMT

I've got a job!

Let's hope I can keep it. :3

My friend's character. :3 Really happy with how this came out. 8D Will add background during actual coloring. Ignore the badly done pinksplotches ;_;

Not sure if I posted this.. >.>

A friend of mine sketched it, I colored 8D

Something from art class.. >.>

Something in which I actually like how it turned out 8D

And now, I will go lose myself in lychee. <3

Late-night thoughts.

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 07:45:21 GMT

... I want to get my hair cut like this:

I know it's impossible. and I also want to get it colored, or just a lot of highlights. I'm insane, yes? *3*

Also, armwarmers are love. And because I'm bored..

Shirt says, I'm having a crumby day.

Got paid, and splurged <3~

still have a moderate amount of monehs left. Plan to get my haircut with it. but not sure if I should go for short hair, despite how much I really, REALLY want to xD

I"ve been thinking about doing it for weeks, man~ >.>

Will post art if I ever get finished coloring this monster of a sketch D8

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 18:31:04 GMT

I forgot to post this..

Obviously, the lineart is way too pretty to be mine D8 But I'm kinda proud of the coloring XD not the hair, but the skintones >.>

Lack of sleep sucks. I could barely friggin' function at all!

I think I'll collapse on my bed at some point within the hour.. >.>

So.. tired. I have nothing more to say. @_@

Also. I have a shirt that says, "A Ninja Swiped My Homework", and I love it. 8D

.. >.>

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 00:28:13 GMT

Another art dump, because I'm an idiot XD

I don't know what this is anymore.. xD

An attempt at Tayuya. >.>

Something shiny. and doodly. shinydoodly. <3

The sketch of Kakashi for my mom~

The color version. >.>

Something for the H&E Soapy xD

Another thing for the H&E soapy~ just a sketch.

Colored version~!

My summer has ended ;__;

Something I sketched last night. =3 Anatomy's really wonky, but I like it XD added tones for the hell of it.

... I need to just post whenever I draw something. -___-

It'll be a lot easier that way. XD Really. and people will know I exist. >.>

Starting school tomorrow. kinda. not really school. XD at least until I get a job.

D8 My summer. it's all gone. ;___;

art dump of epic proportions!!1!

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 19:10:28 GMT

Also, a meme~

Leave a comment saying what you think of me, and I'll reply and tell you what I think of you. No lies, all genuine articles.

A friend's OC, Ayame. =3

Sailor Senshi Mods! Of H&E. I am.. Jupiter. xD Drawn by saku-chan from H&E. :3

Some flowers, sketched for work. :D

Sakura, in a really wierd outfit. Done in oekaki. >.>

Random girl! wanted to try a different coloring technique.. xD dont' think I succeeded. completely done in photoshop. =3

Yakatsu, a member from H&E. >.>

Sketch of Ashy's PeinBlue thing~

Done from memory of previous sketch at work, but in sketchbook this time.. >.>

Random bookmark-shaped thing? XD

Done last night. =3 Actually kind of like how it came out, but I phail at backgrounds. >.> For the record, though.. Scars are REALLY fun to draw and color. <3

Uh. Yeah. My god, I need to post more often.. DX Not that anyone will see this post! And if they do, it'll probably be ignored. <3

For sharingank

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 18:45:01 GMT

so here is the (early!) birthday gift for you, Ashy. =3

Preview:

Zomg, it SUCKS. And I tried so hard. ;_; I hope you like it, Ashy. XD I spent a couple days on this. =3
~~Argh, the coloring is horribly messy, I hate it. xD~~

Art dump to come later! :3

Art post!

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 01:56:20 GMT

Okay, two drawings, both photoshop. :3 Two cuts, as one is rather.. uhh.. Suggestive.

Preview:

Preview:

Uhm. Wow. Super-nervous about posting this. Dammit, I should stop drawing at 7 AM, shouldn't I? D8

Anyway! Yuki, and Hiroshi, two rp OC's. He'd said at one point, that yuki was hawt when she bleeds. They also love to beat the shit out of each other. :3

I'll post some normal art, I swear. T___T I'm pretty proud of these, though. ?

Work tomorrow. TT~TT I'm going to end up ranting about the color wheel again, I know it. D8

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 10:08:20 GMT

Okay, it's 6 AM, but I must steal this meme from _penguins_.

Comment and I will draw you, using MS Paint, regardless ofwhether I know what you look like or not. Basically, I will draw youhow I think you would look. Then you'll tell me if I'm close or not. (post a pic or whatever.)

I just doodled a certian someone (who will be getting two images, if they comment here) and it's such awesome fun. 8D I don't expect many people to reply, though.

Also, two doodles behind the cut.

Done in pchat a while back. :3 I rather like how it came out. was practice for shoulders/neck.

Yuki, as I haven't drawn her in ages. I rather like this, and my favorite part about it is where her neck meets her shoulder. <3

I"m much to awake. xD

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 01:03:13 GMT

Uh, so, I never updated on my birthday. xD

A lot of things happened on that particular weekend, but it was overall good. It didnt' SEEM like it would end well at times, but it did! so it was good. :3 I can't be nineteen. >_>

I am out of high school! woooo~
Anyway, I stayed up late last night, and really, this is the product of listening to Evanescence while drawing in bed at 7 AM.

Don't mind the writing, it's what I was thinking at the time. XDDD I couldn't rant on the computer, so I wrote it down. Sorry about the bad handwriting? XD I actually kind of like how it came out. :3

And I have nothing else to say! I should, if everything goes well, be going to Otakon~~ :3

Thu, 31 May 2007 18:08:19 GMT

Beware the lack of subject title. xD Most of you know my feelings on this whole LJ thing, and are probably sick of hearing it, so none of that from meh. >.>

The point of this post would be the art dump~

Kabuto doodle, done in artrage. :3

My sad attempt at NaruSaku. Will maybe color it, and have added his whisker-marks in the lineart, but I'm too lazy to upload. D8 Sakura's hair was fun, and I attempted Naruto's, but it failed me. >.>;

Got inspired when my teacher was talking about and translating Macbeth for my senior english class. Gah. xD His head is huge, I know.

Semi-realism, I think. Done in pencil, and drawn from a photo on teh intarwebz somewhere. xD Wanted to practice. Was bored. Like I am now. D8 I'm horrible with a pencil. xD better with digital stuffs. >.> Still working on this damn thing. x.x

If the last image doesn't show up, try this link.

Also, I am DONE with finals! 8D *celebrates* Just one more day, and I'm free. hopefully.

Will make a post about my birthday tomorrow, when it, uh, actually IS my birthday. xD

Fri, 18 May 2007 03:03:44 GMT

Yes, Suigetsu fanart. :D Kinda.

Gaaah, I'm proud of thiiis. <3 Lineart not by me, obviously. It's YonderBeyonder's, a friend that I rp with. :3 I had fun coloring it! :D

Yeah, totally stole the title from the name of the Suigetsu community. >.>

Neck. pain. Ow. D8 *falls over*

Thu, 17 May 2007 19:53:37 GMT

It's freaky, posting often. D: Maybe I should stop.. >.> Go back to LJ-lurking!

Anyway, art under the cut. One image. xD

I still have no clue what the hell to name her. D: Though, I do like her! 8D May draw more of her. xD

I got my two assignments back from my art teacher! 8D Only... they're too big to scan. D: wah. And I finally finished my art final. :3

I have finals in less than two weeks. someone keel me. T______T

Wed, 16 May 2007 21:57:54 GMT

I must be getting to be annoying now, flist. XD I need help, though! D8

What color should her hair and eyes be? T____T I can't think of anything that'd fit. argh.
Thanks in advance~~(If anyone replies)~~!

Edit: Okay, I've colored it, and I like how it came out. :3 Will post tomorrow. >.>

Also: It's raining! <3 but I probably can't go to the art show because of the thunderstorm. ;_;

... And I hope my connection doesn't go out. D8